I kissed a girl and I like it!

I don't know what makes people think that kissing the same gender is wrong. I don't find the weird thing out of that though. I mean, what's the different between kissing a girl and a boy. They have the sam thing called mouth that we're smooching right?

I found out that some people are like disgust to the statement above. But fr me. It's so usual and I don't find that weird and I need to avoid it.

Soooo.. This post are just telling. My point of view o this particular problem

See ya!

Letter to God

Sometimes I wish I could be someone else.
Better, Nicer, Smarter, Taller, Skinnier, Prettier...
Sometimes I wish I could be someone with better attitude, better heart.
I know I'm not perfect, almost rude and meaningless.
I can't be what people around me expect me to be.
I can't be what others see me and do as it.
But... I can't even excuse myself for anything.
I don't know
Who I am.
What am I suppose to be.
Where I belong.
How I must act.

I pray. For God to please show me the way you wanted me to be.


hopeless human creature.

day today..

I cut my hair todaaay..yay!!
I'll post it sooner or later. you'll see..
Actually deep-deep inside my heart I feel a bit sad.
Looking at my pretty long hair, cut into a short bob style.
I look like ChibimarukoChan when I show it to Ibuk, my friend from highschool..
OheMGi..
My purpose on cuttiing my hair is that I wanna get older look on me. I want others to see me as a big girl(at least).
Haaaah~~fine lah! I can work on it later anyway. Hope this will get longer faster.

That's all for today. I'm pretty sleepy already..hehe

Nitee

Sunday Night.(or Saturday?)

Sabtu kemaren, gue jln ama ank2 manado (friends from another island (omg im exaggerating)) ke TA.

Rencana awal hari itu, sore2 gw ama Brigitte pgn foto2 d taman prumahan gt. Buuutt, secara gw bangun kesorean alias uda sore dan hr itu mendung berhujan berintik. Kayanya jd ogah2an jg. Eheh, sudden2ly.. Si gaby ngjk Brigitte buat ngjk gw jg jalan (ribet bgt dah).. First destination TA!! uwooo how can I ignore that!?!? I love going out and hanging out and out of the box (apadah!) pkonya yg out2 deh..hehe
Meskipun keadaan keuangan kurang mendukung. Tp y sudahlah.. WTV fufufu. Gwpun lgsg bersiap2 dandan make up dan everything..

Pertama si Gabz pgn mkn martabak d ruko Gading Serpong. Okee.. And we didn't forget to take some picts while waiting..




That's gabzz.. and mee.. in her lovelovelyy carr..

Then at TA. We're like craving for food. Soo, gabz and I decided to eat at Pancious. Lmyn mahal buat kondisi keduitan tp y sdhlah. I don't want to be too choosy.


And there we are, me with bad hair day. And gabz with unblow hair which looks great but she still thinks that it's bad!!

Abis makan2 kt ktmuan ma Indry and Ira dan teman2nya di Donner Kebab dan disitulah si Brigitte mengisi perutnya krn dia ga mkn di Pancious. Gw yg ky kambing cengok kga nangkep mrk ngmg apa nyerocos pake bhs manado.. =p




Inilah cewek2 yg pergi ama gw hari Sabtu malam.. Dan gw sebatang kara yg non-manado..zzz



Indry, gw dan Brigitte.. The three of us has spent lots of time hanging out together..
Love yaaa!! mwaaachh

Setelah berfoto2 ria di dpn TA ky org ga pnh k TA, tmn si Gabz dtg and jmpt gw ma Briggite buat lanjut ke Kemang. And the rest were ready to back to Serpong buat ngasi surprise ke another manado friend of us yg lagi hari jadii..

Ke Kemang, kt lanjut ke Splash. Nongkrong di tmp where we were not belong in. Bayangin aja tmn si Gaby pny tmn org Korea, nama aja gw ga tw gt. Ikut aja kt nimbrung d sana.. Oke bgt dah.. zzz... Secara dia ultah (juga) jd y uda kt mnm2.

Lanjut ke Senayan. Rencana mau ke X2. Eh tny malu bgt ga sih kt ga blh masuk. Since it's my first time going (even planning to enter) to the club I was like a stupid little lamb doesn't know anything!! Tmn2 yg uda dgn pedenya nunjukin ktp kartu tanda penduduk yg gw blm pny.. Akhirnya kt berlama2 di sana entah menunggu apa gw jg ga ngrti. Dan end up ttp ga blh masuk. okelah! Hate u X2 and those who don't allow us to enter. Padahal gw liat bnyk bgt artis2 masuk uiiih..ngarep bgt dah..hhhaha

I found an interesting quote from a website I drop on..
http://www.flickr.com/photos/28552145@N05/4576652697/

It says:
When you put a mask. You feel like a weirdo..
You can do anything you want and no one will ever know.
Nasir Mazhar-

Love the quote!!

A Heart to Return

I have only feel this feeling when I was with you..
A peace-love-joy..
I wish I could return back the time.
If I could, I wouldn't have done this thing.
I won't give up on you so easily..
I won't just break it up so easy..

I'll try to hold you..
Though I know I might not be the best for you..
Though I know you might cheated on me..
Though I know you might have a crush on another bitch..
I'll keep you stay with me..

But it's all happen and nothing I could do to redo it..
I know it's impossible to build the relation again..
I know it's hard to stay in touch with you again..
That was my mistake. And this is my destiny..

I just hope that someday, you might fall for me again..
If it's possible.
Or just stay in touch with me..

Or will I get a better person than you are..
I wish I know..
I wish I deserve second chance..
To be with someone I could hold on..

I heart Joo Ji Hoon

Recently I really addicted to Joo Ji Hoon a korean actor and model. I'm not really a fans kind of person esp. addicted to Korean guys. But he really deserved it. I like him since the movie Goong. And now, after so long time I watched Mawang which makes me again fall for deeper love to him. He is such a adorable and handsome man. I heart him so much.


Here's some of his picts..

Goong

Mawang

The Naked Kitchen

Antique Bakery

So here's his profile (source:Wikipedia)

• Name: 주지훈 / Joo Ji Hoon (Ju Ji Hun)
• Real name: Ju Young Hoon
• Profession: Model and actor
• Birthdate: 1982-May-16
• Birthplace: South Korea
• Height: 187cm
• Weight: 68kg
• Star sign: Taurus

TV Series

• The Devil (KBS2, 2007)
• Goong (MBC, 2006)
• Old Love 옛사랑 (MBC, 2004)

Movies

• The Naked Kitchen (2008)
• Antique Bakery (2008)

Endorsements

• Crown Butter Waffle
• Clride
• Bon
• Hi Harriet Shopping Mall
• Calvin Klein
• CF- SKT
• Cass Beer
• IBM
• LEVI's
• POLO
• Reebok
• Cyworld
• KTF
• Sshil On-line game
• OB Lager Beer

He's now in the Military Service related to the drugs problem. I wish him luck and happiness always..
I hope 2 years later when it's his due to out of the military service I could visit Korea and meet him.. <3<3<3<3

Y Y Y!!!

Knp wkt gw ngarepin tmn2 gw bt online mrk ga da. Dan wkt mrk online gw yg ga pgn chat..zzz

I don't really enjoy my life here now. I got friends but I don't really think I fit them and they fit me as well. I think it's not my world. World with mask. I wish I could open my mask, stop faking. And show the world who I really am. I hate to be in this situation. I need something that describe me...
I want my friends real friends who can accept me without judging me need me not only sometimes. Can I get any? Do I deserve them?
I know lots of things make me seems worthless. I'm not smart, talented, kind fun or anything good. But I'm trying to be. That's what I want to be....

I need twinkle in my life.

And a smile without mask.

Worhtless

I thought about my life. And I feel worthless..
I have nothing to be proud of. I've got nothing special.
I even mostly being an annoying person..

I hurt friends,
I do bad things,
I am not studying well,
I am untalented..

I regret about my life, I pity myself for being such a useless human being.
Sad, I do. Angry, I do.
But what can I do...
I don't know.

You deserve better.
I am not good enough.
I don't want to look for better person than I am.
Just stay away from me.
I am bad.
You won't like me when you see who I actually is.

Hate me for myself.

Kota Tuaa

I'm gonna use my mother language for today..hihi

Sudah direncanakan dr kmrn kalo hari ini gw bakal k jkt. Hunting foto buat tugas photography. Yang ga direncanakan adalah bahwa aku berubah haluan. Rencana awal ke museum prasasti (lagi??) tp akhirnya aku memutuskan untuk ke kota tua dulu dan menengok isi museum wayang
dan mgkn fatahillah sekalian). Tapiii sang museum(s) tutup karena hari ini tanggal merah (who knows?? it's easter they're not celebrating it anyway). Luckily, ga sia2 perjalanan ke sana karena tanpa kusadari ada pertunjukan kuda lumping.. Thenn, I'm just gonna show you the pictss:

Capeek bgt hunting foto ini. Mana jkt hr ni panas bgt. Tak berhenti diriku mengcurkan keringat.. Tapi ya sudahlah, I love adventuring and today it's really what I called me time.. A time for no one but my self.. smoooch~

Love Today!!

It's a wonderful day today.. I went to Jakarta to hunt some picture..
First I use the angkot and then the bus and then angkot again. I reach this Museum Tekstil. First I thought it was a Museum Prasasti the place we planned to go.. But anyway, I took some picture and my friend did as well. And here's some that i took:

Soo those were some pictures that I took today.. I'm soo tired yet happy.
And another good thing is that we went home by... TRAIN!! It's been soo long I'd like to go to this Jakarta Kota Station but I haven't get the chanced but now I did. The place I have seen in some movie that makes me soo excited to go. But soo poor I can't take some picture bcos we were running out of time the train is about to go..

Soo happy I even captured the pict of the tiket and me inside.

So those were my adventure today.. Love today much!!
Though I spend much money (aaaargh!! I promised not to, bu it's not really much anyway)...
<3

Birthday Blast!!

You know whaat.. it's my birthday todaaayy..aaand im 17!! its the age when people are thiking that we are mature enough to take care of ourself. so this is the hit right!! ha-ha

actually what more fun is that my aunt from surabaya sent me this cute pink cake with my name on it..


That was cuutee.. and delii of course he-he..


Second thing is that i got another cake from my friends
The cake is sooo soft i wonder how could it be that way..
so here' another pict taken:

See, can you imagine how soft it is..lol

Another thing!!
I got presents from my beloved friend. She gave me this cute piggybank and alarm clock..
I put my scatered coins inside and in just some minutes it's almost full. Absolutely useful!!

Luv it!!

Sooo I guess it's all about today. And thanks for the wishes and greetings in my facebook..
Luv y'all <3

A New Thing

Just making a new blog. Hope this will bring more happiness to my life..
Hope this will last for long..

;)